Ying Ying

2011-12-04T01:04:00.001+08:00

Across the miles
It's funny to me
How far you are but now
Near you seem to be
I could talk all night
Just to hear you breathe
I could spend my life
Just living this dream
You're all I'll ever need

You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love, someone to hold
When I'm in your arms
I need you to know
I've never been this close

Close enough to see it's true
Close enough to trust in you
Closer now than any words can say

2011-10-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

Fresh start at work at our new office - ASQ 1. A very modern and stylish looking building with all the impractical facilities. Have found a couple of routes to work, but no matter what, i will still need to rely on train to reach the final destination.

for now, lunching out is a chore. you see ppl ppl ppl everywhere. i need to venture around the area to look for good, cheap and quieter place for lunch. a lunch guide would be nice. hahahaz..

i need to learn to let go in work. i can't be covering for everyone and i shouldn't be checking on ppl's work. i need to trust that others will also do their job with integrity. im only just an employee.

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missing sh badly. missing the beautiful sky and weather in europe. how i wish i can stay there a little longer.. i would love to travel to the other parts of europe and even back to the few countries that we have been to. it was a good break away from city life. a break away from the hustle and bustle. just you, me, the sky, the grass and the cultural sights.

Kindness should come naturally

2011-09-11T22:22:00.005+08:00

I will be rushing back from tuition or work to have enough time to skype with sh every night. it'll usually be around evening time, just before his dinner.

Thank god for all these inventions. i couldn't recall how i had survived 2 weeks in china without any form of verbal/visual communication with sh. how it suck.

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Had foreseen the coming hectic week. oohh.. why is september such a busy month?? VOE company activity and the shifting to our new office to Asia square. it's going to be a dreadful journey to work from next month onwards. i will miss the old office. The convenience, the location, the lunch, the shopping, the pubs, the everything.. oohhhh..

Wake me up when September ends

2011-09-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

It's September! 3/4 of the year has passed!

If time can fly and let the remaining 3months hurried off.. I am so looking forward to Jan'12, that's when sh will be back from his school exchange. aaahhh..

I know there's skype and whatsapp and facebook and sugarsyn and some more other ways to stay connected though we are far apart.. nothing beats holding you in my arms real tight..

Play hard but not too wild. hahahz..

I miss you

2011-04-04T00:14:00.002+08:00

Be optimistic! Life goes on...

2011-02-20T16:14:00.005+08:00

I was wondering, what has happened to this little space here - my own not-so-private space. maybe i have found someone whom i am able to talk to and thus thye space is redundant now. or i m just plain lazy to document down what have been happening in my life religiously. either way, thye space has been neglected. like how i have neglected myself..

I let excuses take over and time passes by on its own. I'm in control of nothing. i have no big dreams. no goal in life. no strong desires. nothing.

When i ponder further, i realize how aimless i am. are there such people like me - breast no big mole?

Maybe i'm too comfortable now; so much so that i have nothing much to work towards for. no issues, no bother.

A simple life is not a simplistic life.

I need some plans in life...

The best things in life are free;

You can't buy love neither can you pay for joy.

2011-01-01T17:30:00.006+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

nov/dec just zoomed away so quickly.

in our school days, every new year means something more to us. like we are closer to the exams or to the last yr of JC/uni. we are much more aware and concerned about it. now, it's just another year.. another new year.. oohh man, i feel so old!

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I was taking a train back from work or somewhere once and there's a couple sitting opposite me having the 'cold war'. the girl ignored the guy, no matter how he tried to get her attention. at one point, she took out her ipod/mp3 and pretended to sleep. he couldn't stand it and pulled her ear piece off. she snatched it and put them back on. they stood far apart when they were alighting.

it's not something uncommon. when the girls get angry/unhappy, they will either scream/curse their heads off or give the guy the silent treatment. no matter what, the girls are always right. many guys will agree to this. it's always them who are giving in.. 'coz girls always cry.

but sometimes, i wonder.. is it that difficult to sit down and talk it out.. tell the other party what you are unhappy about, what is driving you mad, what is causing you not to smile... leave the sarcasm and comparison aside. just say them out plainly with your true feelings. there's no point trying to hurt each other's feelings - you love each other, remember??

there are many times we put things off before we even try. theres a mental barrier in us that stops us from doing many things that we wanna do. we start imagining what will happen if we do/say something, how will others react, how will they think of me..

actually, thats two different issues. couples - pls learn to be honest with one another. communication helps. dont give the silent treatment, thinking the other part will understand what went wrong or what you really want.

for the wants vs mind issue - just be happy with what you are doing.

this entry is not leading to anywhere.. i just wanna talk to someone.. someone out at the greengreen grass...

It's easy to fall in love but it's different to stay in one..

2010-11-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

hmmmmm....

nearing to the end of the year, the festive mood comes very naturally. you feel less 'hardworking' and more 'fun'. everyone around me is coming out with their wish lists - the needs and the desires. i don't really have a wish list... i need more time to sleep. more money to go for holidays. more paid leaves to go for holidays. more patience. less complains.

im not greedy.

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Sep/Oct were busybusy months. Our dept is small-tiny. If it so happens that 2 are away from work, the 3 of us will be busy slapping the fire off our asses. Nobody likes to be chased for replies and confirmation. AND everything that comes in is all urgent.

Urgency has lost its meaning.

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Sh has been slogging tirelessly for the past 2 months. but he promised to have sufficient rest everyday. one more month to go and you will be free like a.. rabbit!

Happy times, everytime.

2010-10-07T23:41:00.005+08:00

it's been a while.

took a break and went for a week long break to china with my family. hadn't been on a holiday with them since i was.. 7, 8 years old. that's a llooonnnggg time ago.

China isn't such a 'old ppl's fave' kind of country. you really need to be somewhat fit to be able to reach your destination in an enjoyable manner. i will want to go back there some time.. to conquer the great wall - no cheating!

returned to work after a good 2 weeks' break and im still picking the bits and pieces of spillover. if i did missed any enquires, let it be. IF it's really important, they will come back to me again. there are times when you get idiotic requests, just stupid.

enuff of work.. lets talk about my kids' examination. PSLE has began. end of yr exam is approaching. their results are my report card as well. Though i didnt teach them for a full whole yr, i hope i did help them in someway to improve in their subjects and in themselves. i actually spend quite some time talking to them other than sch/tuition work every lesson. it's easier to communicate when you gain their trust.

i went for a course on communication style and ethics yesterday. and it teaches about the different communication styles and how we should observe and adapt to another's style to communicate more effectively. " We should treat others the way THEY want to be treated." that is one main reason why you feel exhausted talking to some but very enjoyable with others. just be more observant and adapt.

it's always fun going for such personality, values related courses. it makes you understand/realize about how/why things work this way, ppl react this way, ppl think in such weird ways. it just opens my eyes a little wider.

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i made a cheesy potato brocolli-ish dish last weekend. sorry, i didnt actually come up with a very elegant name. hahahaz.. but it tastes good. especially awesome when we get to eat it tog. PLUS, sh is always so nice to 'offer' to do the washing =) plus point!

What gets praised, gets repeated!

2010-09-20T23:04:00.009+08:00

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

""Since the day the groom carried the bride into their home on their wedding day, they are supposed to hold each other until death do they apart. ""

Have a real happy relationship!

2010-08-25T21:30:00.002+08:00

for the past few days at this hour.. i would be tucked under the blanket, watching some English drama, chatting with sh, reading my book and falling asleep all at the same time..

life has been great. so great that i dont wanna return home. to work. i wouldnt say that phuket is the most exciting, interesting place to be, 'coz there's really nothing much for me to do there.. probably becoz im not interested in muay thai, ping pongs, sexy fun massages, animal abuse.. but for everything else, that place is perfect for relaxation. there's nothing much to do, nothing much to plan and thus nothing much to worry... you are just there to be away from reality. hahahz..

IF i can swim well, i will be enjoying myself better as i will be able to snorkel further and even try diving there. that will be my next goal - diving. but first, i need to know how to swim - without the help from the life vest, snorkel mask, breathing tube and a guiding hand. at least, sh let me know that i can float without the help from the vest. i still need the tube and mask on so that i can breath and swim at the same time. i get to feed the fishes and see them chionging towards me, okie, the bread and bananas that we have in our hands. see them feeding right in my face. sooo cute. soooo fun.

the other first try would be elephant trekking, in the rain. oh, i forgot to say that it rained (on-off) for the 1st 3days of our trip, the last day was perfect sunny weather to either get yourself baked under the sun or lock yourself up in an air-conditioned jeep and roam round the island. we chose the latter. the weather was so hot, it made me so sleepy - i spent almost a third of the time 'exploring' phuket town in my sleep.

i actually thought theres nth much to spend but i actually spend quite alot there, becoz the things there arent cheap.

i snorkeled, i drove, i elephant trekked, i had breakfast on the beach, i sat on a motorbike, i drank chang, i watched House, i saw water buffaloes, i lunched by the beach, i rolled about on the oversize double bed, i spent 4 days not knowing whats next etcetcetc and i did all these with sh by my side. =)

oh one more thing. i went into an ARSENAL fan club shop and bought a tee there. =) red is still hot!! but you are hotter, sh, always.

Indulge in life's simple pleasures.

2010-08-16T00:38:00.004+08:00

i should be sleeping right now but since i have some time to spare, and im feeling very awake right now, must as well have a quick update here..

last week was the once-in-a-blue-moon long weekend. really nice to wake up on Sunday morning and remember that i dun hae to work the next day. that feeling is heavenly. i cant recall if i have mentioned that i dread Sundays more than Mondays. 'coz when Mondays' here, Friday is not far away.. =)

we are going to phuket this coming weekend. our first time to phuket and i really hope my first snorkeling fun will be experienced there. maybe that will kick me into learning swimming then diving. i really wanna go down under to see all those beautiful shoals of fishes and corals and fishes and corals.. see.. i dun even know what's in there becoz i have not been there.. ARGH.

anyway, im REALLY looking forward to it.

What i know might not be the truth.

2010-07-31T14:10:00.003+08:00

for the month of july..

hectic.

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world cup has ended! and 'Go spain Go' won me a lunch.

im a big Argentina fan but decided to bet on Spain after they lose to swis in their first match. and luck got me a waraku lunch from my colleague. hahahz.. talk about no free lunch in the world.

life is now revolving around work, my colleagues and more work-related matters. sh always has to listen to my yapping and complains. it always nice to know that there will be someone willing to listen to all these craps with no complains, maybe.. not yet =) when you talk it out, you will realize that these are actually nothing. just part and parcel of work.

there were some unexpected happenings, both good and bad ones. it's always tough to make the correct decision because there will times where there is no right decision but to only settle with the best.

Sometimes the problem doesnt lie with the person, it's the timing.

2010-07-12T03:27:00.000+08:00

GO SPAIN GO!

2010-06-06T13:20:00.003+08:00

i'm a INFJ according to the MBTI.

hahahz.. it looks like i came from the outer space speaking Blabajabish. hmm actually, that was how i felt when i was going through the personality test during the Interpersonal Effectiveness course last week - Where the hell did this lady standing in the centre of the room come from?

and so according to the test, im an introvert. a clear cut introvert. shocked? i think many would have thought that i would rather die if i were to keep my mouth shut for a minute. many like me have the wrong impression of introverts. an introvert does not mean that he/she is shy/fearful. basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone 'coz it's 'draining' to be ard ppl. we need time to 're-charge' alone before meeting with ppl again. we walk through our thoughts before opening our mouths and we do not like to interrupt others while they are speaking, even if we have the urge to correct them or to help them finish their sentences.

which is why, many thought introverts are shy, shun crowds and hates having conversation with people. and extroverts are often bored by the 'quiet' introverts, just because our replies will be very short and often difficult to 'continue from thereon'...

okie enough with the personality lecture. lets move on to.. ..

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UBIN! we went there to cycle yesterday. the sky was horrible in the early morning. so we hang ard at changi v for brunch, deciding to go or not to go. and yes, we went ahead as planned. it was fun. fun watching tys cycles. fun watching dar chionging into the forest, lang langs and the many unknown. fun pushing bee to gogogo! we even spotted a female wild boar with her kids -2 of them. sooo cute. blame my cracking knees for scaring the babies away when i was going down to take a closer shot. i only managed to take a photo of the older kid's butt - running away for dear life..

doubt this ubin kind of outing will be happening soon. hahahz.. bee and tys have phobia of me planning such outing again. i will give them ard 6months break.. and we will chiong off to another funland~

Life often has the habit of shaping itself nicely.

2010-05-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

it's one of those times..

shutup.

2010-05-16T23:58:00.003+08:00

OH.. it's MAY.

i took up yoga and managed to 'influence' some friends to go along. Good things - must share! it really trains my patience and take me away from the fast-paced life. though the instructions flew out like automatic guns, the last part of cool down is slow and relaxing. just lie down and try NOT to fall asleep.

it's a form of exercise. maybe not the vigorous kind but im still working out, somehow. makes me feel a little better since im always 'not able to' jog with sh every weekend.

anyway, i bought a proper pair of running shoes and a new bag so that i have no excuses like 'that pair not good for running'. the bag has nth to do with my laziness, i just wanna share.. hahahaz.. and both are in shades of green. NICE!

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last week was a good one. went for soft skills training on the first two days and then workworkwork for the rest of the week. a good week break from tuition thus more time to do some things that i have been putting away. i cleaned my wardrobe, table, had a nice catch up with my cousins and visited grandma.

June holis' here sooon... =)

Success breeds success.

2010-04-25T23:21:00.003+08:00

The 7 things I like about you...

Your hair, your eyes, your humorous self,
And when we kiss I'm hypnotized.
You make me laugh, you make me cry,
I guess that's both I'll have to buy.
Your hand in mine.
And when we're intertwined,
Everything's alright.

I wanna be with the one I know.
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you...

2010-04-18T23:05:00.005+08:00

I have officially graduated!!!!

that's my bf and his buddy..

and yes, I have finally graduated...

2010-04-10T23:47:00.005+08:00

ants and I have a love hate relationship. hmm maybe it's only a one-sided one. hahahz..
when i m in the right mood, i love to 'play' with ants. to collect them from different 'troops' and put them together to see how they react towards each other. perverse but fun.

but i hate to see them crawling in my room. on the floor. on the walls. on ME. which is why i nv allow food/coloured drinks in my room. no wrappers in my dustbins. no smell=no ants. on one fateful night, i allowed 3 girls to have mac meals in my room while playing mahjong (burgers fries and chilli sauce. GOD). i tink i also ordered a burger or sth. i was very unwilling but everyone was hungry and it's noisy to play in the living room so i lifted the rule for tat night. subsequently, the rule was almost non-existent. ants started appearing in my room and i found a new entertainment. following their trails...

you see, every animals hae their distinctive traits. i believe ants are practically blind. their movement is mostly guided by their sense of smell. smell from fellow mates and food(dead insects and my food). the ants in my kitchen are attracted to my drinking water. i can always find some swimming (okie, drowning helplessly and others which did not survive the swim) in the water jug. it's interesting to behave/think like them. crawling in a messy yet orderly manner. going from place A to B. they dun take short cuts. they take routes tat are more unlikely to be detected and they really dun mind going the distance.. which is why we have nursery songs abt hardworking ants.. hmm no, i tink that song is for the bees.

Found joy when i m inside your universe.

2010-04-03T02:26:00.003+08:00

the last 2 weeks was busy. mic decided to start her 16weeks maternity leave earlier and left our poor bt with little hands-on training time.. i wouldnt say that she's new. she actually came to the dept 2 weeks earlier than me. but our job scope is a little different.. a little lighter than ours. so taking over mic's portfolio is a rather big change. so for the last few weeks, i was trying my best to help whenever i could. on days where i hae to leave early for tuition, she would have to approach our seniors.

and it's at times like this will i realize, i dun really know my job well enough. there are times where im explaining things i dun really understand. i m just following the steps. i m not someone who follow rules blindly but for some reasons, i just took the instructions as it is. no questions asked. my memory is not awesome and my little secret manual doesnt have all the things that i need to know. i would need a little trigger to remember fully/partially, why it has to be done that way. assisting her makes me realize how little i know/understand abt my job. and the feeling is scary. i need to rush thru my work while keeping a lookout if there's any urgent mails she has to attend to. it's tiring sometimes. now i understand why mic said, "she's not like you."

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work life balance

is yours balance?

i like to meet sh coz it means that weekends' here again! and thats when life begins..

i get to slp like no body's business. meet up with frenz. more slp. watch sh watching me. read. daydream. nua in my bed. nice and long meals (no rush to go back to work). stay up till late and wake up at 4pm the nx day.

isnt this THE ideal life?

but my life is only 2.5 days a week.

Being rich is in the state of mind,

not in monetary value.

2010-03-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

Got to live with my stupidity for a long long time....

2010-03-01T00:23:00.005+08:00

*Old Room. Boring white.*

*Whatcha looking at?*

*The day before i was de-braced*

*New Room. Refreshing green*

this time.. i have pictures!!! hahahaz.. (just so i dun feel the obligation to type as much to fill up the same amount of space... =X)

HAPPY MARCHMARCHMARCH~~

Happy love is falling in love many times with the same person.

2010-02-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

2 people can be best buddy, good frenz but if you just add a little romance in it, they can also be the greatest lovers. Terms and condition apply, of course.

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the long long cny cum vday weekend is over and a dry period of "workworkwork - only weekends are free" weeks is starting tmr!!

we celebrated vday and his birthday together, esp took a day off to enjoy some time for ourselves. =) a simple guy who dun need anything big or flashy but no less, he is the unique and special one. im always looking forward to fridays. there is no need to explain why. hahaz..

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s19 met on the 19th at 1930hr for our so called 'incomplete reunion' dinner. actually, the attendance turned out fine. just missing a couple of them which partially is my fault. heehee.. luo hei at bee's hse. won 2 bucks in blackjack, spent it on Sundae and lost 9 bucks to bee in mj. end of night.

You love the lovable and not-so-lovable sides of me.

2010-02-15T15:21:00.003+08:00

wanted to post some pictures here after realizing how colourless this place has become since i started working.. i was looking thru my photo folder and wonder where my photos have gone to. i know sh has accidentally removed (permanently) my older folder but what happened to the newer photos? didnt i upload them somewhere... hmm..

i need to bring out my cam more often. but many times, even if i did, i will forget to use it. =(

which leads me to des. spread a teeny weeny bit of the cam whore bug to me maybe?

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i havent finished doing up the photos on my greengreen wall. have the photos developed but.. yet to get down to action. so it just 3 pathetic frames blu-tacked to the wall waiting for the rest to join in.. wanted to get them done by cny but i was too busy. busy looking for reasons not to.

im so lazy.

Love can make my world goes round.

2010-02-07T22:20:00.003+08:00

Don't know how I lived without you
Cause everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eye

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile, always.

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this is the first time in the many years where i have to tidy my room ( okie, for some parts of my room), that i realized my room is almost all cleaned up way before the eve of cny. isnt that awesome!?!

although it still looks messy now, but i believe all it needs is just a little sorting out and everything will look perfect! perfectly cny, ROAR~

most of my time are now spent in the office. sitting in front of the com reading mails, doing documentations and having lunch! everyone knows my love for eating. but to keep my weight down.. i have to curb this urge and switch my focus to other areas.. like.. maybe sleeping or just silently admiring sh.

i just hope time would be so simple and gay for 2010~

Only people in contentment are truly happy people.

2010-01-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

im a selfish brat.

2010-01-11T22:42:00.002+08:00

HHAAAPPPPYyyYY 2010!!!

it wasnt because my life was too dull and routine that i have nothing to post..
i was just.. too busy..

Xmas/New yr gatherings. tidied my room over a few weekends and im not quite done yet. repainted the rooms. hotdates with sh. and sleep.

okie, maybe.. it looks a little boring.. but looks are deceiving.

enuff of bullshit.

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i just finished reading a book i bought at the Popular Fair at SIM last year.

it taught me one thing -Things invariably go wrong in a relationship when people dun confront the small irritations 'coz these petty little irritations escalate until they are seemingly insurmountable.

For 5 bucks, i learn that it's always the little things of everyday life that prove more challenging..

The only person who judges you

IS YOU

2009-12-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

so many things had happened over these few months and i have not been diligently posting every single thing down... maybe it becoz too many things are happening and i don't know how to note everything down..

everything referring to.. my life, referring to ... work, family, sh, frenz and myself.. everything is stable for now.. till 2010. my responsibility will increase and tats when my seniors will see if i really know my stuff WELL. i know sh will still be as sweet and my frenz will still be as.. fun. and for myself.... i probably will try to lose a few more kgs and be less lazy and a little more sensitive and caring and and.. just be nicer to ppl.

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i can foresee...

Mon to Thurs will be passing quickly.. i nv dread working on Monday.. becoz when Monday comes, weekends is near =)

i love my weekends with you!!

Everyone make honest mistake(s)

2009-12-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

GO Simpleliciouss ...

Xmas promotion, all tshirts going for 30% off during this period only!!!!

2009-12-10T00:07:00.004+08:00

the background of the blog was gone for a couple of weeks or maybe more.. i haven been updating regularly.. =X thank god, i have sh to help me get it back to life.

these few weeks were awesome! 3day work week + a super duper long weekend.. which explains why i m able to blog on a Wednesday night - i dont have to work tmr and fri and sat and sun and mon... and then there will be xmas week and *TENG TENG* 2009 is coming to an end..

i joined the company for almost 1/4 of the year.. who knows, 2010 could be gone with a blink of an eye.. FAST like a snake!

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errr... im 22, like finally. when others are grumbling that they are turning 23 soon. =)

thankyou for all those who remembered or maybe, those who tried to remember but somehow.. it just slipped off their mind.. THANKYOU for all the well wishes. LIFE's great~

Machine Machine on the Floor,

Tell me how much have i lost...

2009-11-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

every morning, i hear the same djs giving similar updates on the traffic. it's always that few highway exits and traffic is slow almost everywhere. some day, we will have ERP gantry right outside our car parks.

getting used to the routine of sleeping on bus and squeezing into the train then taking a 20mins walk to my office. occasionally, sh will be there to accompany me through the longlong stroll.

im fortunate to find a job that i dun detest though i m yet to be confirmed. hopefully, everything will just continue as it is.. and i will be 55 before i know it. =X

past week was fun and exciting. the week seemed really short and time was flying away from me. getting used to being kaboom by the RM for unreasonable requests and avoiding responsibilities. i need to be smart. CMA.

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met up with the girls on fri. nice feast accompanied with random updates and hl vs ali squabbling. rushed off after the dinner for my facial. pimples popping out everywhere =(
and almost everyone is telling me that i've gained quite a lot. i need to get rid of those unsightly flesh!!!!

sh came down specially to meet me after the 1 hour relaxation. so sweet of you!

met joce and the other crappy ppl on SAT. okie, im one of them too. hadnt met them for months... and its so nice to see each other again. no serious conversations. just lame jokes and lamer responses that you can nv get enuff of.

Ignorance is my new best fren.

2009-10-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

buddy is back from her long break. help is back when i need becoz i have been relying on the other 2 for the past 2weeks. nov is going to be great. we have the career fair, volunteer program and movie treats, which means i can knock off earlier than usual. hahahz.. it just makes time pass even faster.

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twotwo is coming real soon. it has been an awesome 21. im just so blessed. i have everything that i can ever wish for. god's been treating me really well and im not going to let it slip away. im not going to let my bad habits ruin everything.

you told me that nobody is perfect and beneath that imperfection lies a heart that is true. =)

*i need to lose 5pounds, really.

When life boxes you in a corner -box back!

2009-10-24T17:06:00.002+08:00

i noticed i have been using "How time flies." in almost every post.
well, it really did.

i always start my Monday blues on sunday night and by the end of monday, i will be so looking forward for weekend. it's not that i m dreading work, i just can't wait for weekends to come.

workload is terribly little during the mid-month and i m falling aslp more often. i got to chiongchiongchiong nx week!!

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catch up with the girls last week. its been a llllooonnnggg time.
i will be less busy from nx week onwards. freeing up more than 7hours over the weekends. although i have nth much to do.. the thought of having another 7hours more to nua sounds like paradise~ oohhhh.. i cant wait!

Making money the old-fashioned way - EARN IT!

2009-10-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

weeks flew past just like that. im all by myself for almost 2weeks, at work i mean. after chris left, i had a difficult time picking up from where she had stopped. there are many things to clean up and start afresh.. missing dox, non-standard procedures and all other kinds of problems slowly surfacing everyday. i think the RMs must have hated me alot.

there are so many terminology to learn and memorize.. the sponge is getting a little saturated.

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sh has been really nice. accompanying me during the first few days when i had a tough time getting thru the transition period. all the encouragement and support - i can never thank you enough. =)

i always have the mixed feelings when weekends is nearing. i will hae more time with sh but it also means MONDAY is coming soon. time is soso precious now.

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celebrated jing's 22nd at some hotel where we had our EARLY lunch buffet. its really difficult to get all of us to meet that early.. unless theres a special occasion to it. a special request from a special someone. even hl also got no say to it. hahaahz...

to my forever sweetsweet girl, relax your expectations for guys la.... SEEYOU soon!

We were young when i first met you..

2009-09-20T16:29:00.003+08:00

trying to get used to MY JOB. the people, the environment - i already know.
wat i need to understand is - MY JOB.

im like a sponge, absorbing watever i can at the moment. everyday is a new challenge. i have no problem getting up early, squeezing my way to get on the train and staying awake throughout the day. the problem is - myself. i need to know everyting abt the job asap. i m starting to understand a little more of the job scope as the days go by.. but theres stil some self doubt. some qualms. i dunoe if im really up to it. if ever there's a slight blunder, their heads will roll.

no slip-ups. no mix-up. i need to be clear and alert, coz this is no joke.

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a week just zzziippp by and i really hope it could slow down. im in no rush to replace chris coz i really have a lot more to learn from her. but i always love weekends to come faster. hahahaz.. just so i can meet my sh. and just so fortuitously, it happens to be a long weekend~ wat a good way to start my second week of work. BUT on hindsight, one day lesser to prepare myself for THE JOB.

okie, everyting abt my life is abt the work now. tuition will just go on as usual, hotdates must happen as usual and for the nua-ing... i tink i just hae to wake up earlier to nua over the weekends. i cant possibly waste my time like tat anymore.

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met up with nise on wed for a free movie at marina square. i will knock off early while i still can afford to. went for a jog with sh ard the reservoir this morning. i cant remember when was the last time i'd ran this much, although it wasnt a great deal but it's really more than usual coz usually.. i dont run.

i like times like this. when there's no agenda, no worries. just let it happen as we go.. sometimes we dun hae to say a word. we just sway there, like, oh, i dun know like wat, like nothing most people ever get to experience, i guess. =)

Love isnt just about compromising.

It is muchmuchmuch more.

2009-09-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

090909 09:09:09

once in a lifetime..

one very special date..

one very unique someone..

长长九九

2009-09-08T23:19:00.003+08:00

HA! im actually feeling sad becoz im going to stop teaching xw. i wont deny that she has almost become a part of my life. the time i spent talking to her is definitely more than the time i spent seeing my father. but teaching her is too draining.. i cant afford spending my good old weekends with her. last 3 lessons to go~

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i was late for the meet&greet session this morning. i was panicking throughout the whole journey, not knowing who to inform or how to get there asap. i walked into the room 20mins late, interrupted the presentation and ended up going through the information i had already read through the night before. it ended 30mins earlier than expected and i was home before i knew it. i think i spent more time travelling to and fro.... =(

i need to kill tat bug inside of me. tat "LATENESS" bug. i tink jia just passed it to me and tats why she has been early these few days. you will never expect miracle to happen so frequently, really.

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

2009-09-08T01:27:00.001+08:00

Thank god there's you..

2009-09-03T00:13:00.002+08:00

good things never stopped coming and im grateful for that. it has been an awesome 21 for me. even though the year didnt start off with a big bang, it just got better and better as the months go by. everything just fall into place one by one, piece by piece. i didnt know life could be so great and i would never imagine myself to have everything tat i can ever hope for. i always say that hard work will pay off, someday, somehow and it really did. i didnt live in vain.

sometimes you will hae to go thru some hardship to learn to realise the goodness you hae around you. the things/people taken away from you, the obstacles you hae to overcome, the change in environment that changes you. there can be many possibilities but only one way to go - face it. everything you loved can be taken away from you but you wouldnt die. you just pick your head up and stare at something beautiful like the sky or the ocean and you move the hell on. dont let these obstacles stop you becoz you know you deserve better.

sometimes we just think we've seen it all. the beauty around us, the nature, the sky, the people passing by. they are so near yet we often never remember to stop and look. we think we know them all by heart but actually we forget. it's so easy to forget the things around you. the colour of your staircase. the numbers on the pillars. the person who is always standing at the exact same spot at 2 in the afternoon.

dont ever let greed govern your life. take it slow 'coz you only get to live once.

One today is worth two tomorrows.

2009-08-31T00:48:00.002+08:00

im busy with the same old things. took up a new tuition assignment, going for my monthly facial and weekly hotdates.

met up with the girlsof4D for dinner and then to the Night safari yeste. attended jiaying's convoc on fri, was hired on thurs and the rest was history. hahahaz..

i was anxiously waiting for the call for 2weeks after Linda gave me a surprise call to go down and meet boss for an interview. and finally the ppl from HR called me on mon. they didnt say much over the phone so i wasnt sure if they are going to interview me or that i was hired. i was happy and sad at the same time. im really fortunate to be hired at this time of crisis yet i feel a little lost. im starting a new phase, stepping into a new environment but im still the same me. i dun like to "blend in" just so to "fit in". working life would be more complex than the days in school.

so back to thurs, i was in the interview room for an hour and a half going thru the employee benefits and terms and conditions and a simple/relaxed interview. after tat, i was left alone in the room to fill up a form while they went to take some copies of my certs and IC. i signed the contract before filling up the application form for the position which i have no idea of before stepping into the room. the whole sequence was totally off but it's alright, it's the end result tat matters now. yes, im hired!

the next thing i m looking forward to would be 1st Sep - the release of my last&final results. rumours has been everywhere, anticipating the actual release date and the signs/colour symbols to show if you pass or fail the module. if the rumour is true, well, i passed all my modules. hahahaz.. isnt tat a good thing!?!?

many thanks to sh for accompanying me throughout the 'tough' times. i wouldnt know wat to do without you. =) i wouldnt say tat i m used to having you in my life coz i tink the 2weeks we spent practically living/eating/slping together had actually left an impact that makes me feel that you'd always been a part of my life. i thank you for you.

Bad stuff does happen sometimes.

Always remember tat you hae to move on, somehow.

2009-08-24T00:23:00.004+08:00

Two very different people,
Too scared to get along,
Till two hearts beat together
Underneath one sun.

One very special moment
Can turn a destiny.
And what some would say that never change,
Has changed for you and me.

Cause it's all, it's all in the way you look through your eyes,
And when all is said and done,
All of the fear and all of the lies
Are not hard to overcome.
It's all in the way you look at it,
That makes you strong.
We were two, now we are one.

We are two very different people
So much to overcome.
So why care for one another
When there's so much to be done.

'Cause sometimes it's necessary
Just look how far we've come,
You could say, my friend, that's it's the end
Or a new tale has begun.

One moment in time
Is all the time we need.
Just to make a difference,
To make it better for you and for me
If you just believe.....

We were two, now we are one.

Just open your eyes

2009-08-19T02:01:00.005+08:00

i switched to romance novels after reading the mad thrilling psychopathic series, all from the same author. patterson is great!

just finished one - Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas, and im fully convinced that he can be romantic at times too.

this is a poem from Matt to Suzanne:

Dear Suzanne,

You are the explosion of carnations in a dark room.
Or the unexpected scent of pine from Maine.

You are the full moon that gives midnight its meaning.
And the explanation of water for all living things.

You are a compass,
a sapphire,
a bookmark.
A rare coin,
a smooth stone,
a blue marble.

You are an old lore,
a small shell,
a saved silver dollar.
You are a fine quartz,
a feathered quill
and a fob from a favourite watch.

You are a valentine, tattered and loved and reread a hundred times.
You are a medal found in a drawer of a once sung hero.
You are honey and cinnamon
and West Indies spices,
lost from the boat that was once Marco Polo's.

You are a pressed rose,
a pearl ring
and a red perfume bottle found near the Nile.

You are an old soul from an ancient place,
a thousand years, and centuries and millenniums ago.
And you travelled all this way
just so i could love you.
I do.

Matt

isnt it touching? and they hae a phrase they kept mentioning throughout the whole book - Isnt it lucky?

yes. it's lucky to have met you. it's lucky to be alive today. it's lucky to be breathing and to be able to hold you in my arms. it's lucky to love and be loved. it's lucky to be me. it's lucky to have you. isnt it just so lucky?

It's lucky we found us.

2009-08-19T00:41:00.004+08:00

give me more lovin than i've ever had.

make it all better when i'm feelin sad.

tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

barely gettin mad, i'm so glad i found you.

i love bein around you.

give me more lovin from the very start.

piece me back together when i fall apart.

tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

theres only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you.

theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do.

Best i've had.

2009-08-13T00:20:00.004+08:00

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Instant Karma made t-shirts with tongue in cheek designs. These designs are unique and limited pieces were produced. So it is not like your mass market boys.

so go check them out~

2009-08-12T02:03:00.004+08:00

weekend was well spent with sh. shifted into his new hallsweethall. no way he can cycle over late in the night anymore. =(

but there will still be our regular dosage of HOTDATES. ipromise.

got tis term HOTDATES from bee, coz he's been getting VERYVERY lucky recently. so busy with his dates that he had to forgo the delicious xiaolongbaos for his jellygirl.

s19's meetup has always been crappy. and bee self-claimed tat he had nv missed any one of them. im trying hard to recall if he missed any, but i guess if theres any gathering tat bee cant go, we will probably arrange it on another day. see how important he is. anyway, sch has started for the uni ppl and for those who graduated -> time to find work~~

im going to hunt for one soon... like really soon.
after i got my results in Sept.

No sunshine without you..

2009-08-04T14:08:00.002+08:00

you know how the week just flew by and you cant remember wat you actually did. caught a couple of movies and spent some time with my lovelies, my sh and frenz.

ive finished reading 7books in a month and im waiting to get hold on the eighth. tot of getting some exercise while i can still afford the time to.

yeste was crazy. i was rushing ard in the afternoon and i tink i just went for an informal interview. i just sent my resume to them in the morning and hoping to get THE favourable reply soon. i might probably be starting work in sept~ IF everything goes well.

so... when's my tioman holiday and malaysia 1-day trip going to happen?

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somehow i dun feel secured inside. ive to sacrifice xw and take on sth tat i m not sure of. i did say tat i will take anyting decent tat comes along but when i hae to actually carry out wat i say, its not tat easy. there will always be some attachment, some feelings. ive been teaching her for 3bloody years. she brought me laughter, tears but most of the time frustrations. i wun deny tat i enjoy teaching her but.. i know i hae to let her go sooner or later.

uncertainty. tats how im feeling for my future. BUT!! i believe things will work out, somehow.

I dont wanna miss a thing

2009-07-31T16:13:00.002+08:00

"what goes around comes around"

have you actually experienced tis or maybe see it happening to ppl ard you?
i did. i felt sorry for him but i cant be there to pull him out again. 'cause i dun deserve to go thru all those shit once more. once bitten, twice shy.

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wishing to a shooting star really works.
'cause one of my wishes did come true.
just like how xw told me, ' Miss koh, when i look up the sky and wish upon a star, my wishes will come true the nx day."

okie, maybe mine didnt happen simultaneously but at least there's more meaning to life now.

Love finds you when you're ready.

2009-07-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

Don't fear your best friends, because a best friend would never try to do you wrong.
And don't fear your worst friends, because a worst friend is just a best friend that's done you wrong.
And don't fear the night time, because the monsters know you're divine.
And don't fear the sunshine, because everything is better in the summertime.

Don't fear the water, because you can swim inside you within your skin.
And don't fear your father, because a father's just a boy without a friend.
And don't fear to walk slow, don't be a horse race, be a marathon.
And don't fear the long road, because on the long road you got a long time to sing a simple song.

Don't fear your teachers, because if you listen you can hear music in a school bell.
And don't fear your preacher, if you can't find heaven in a prison cell.
And don't fear your own self, paying money to justify your worth.
And don't fear your family, because you chose them a long time before your birth.

But it's never too late to start the day over, it's never too late, pick up the phone.
You know it's never too late to lay your head down on my shoulders, it's never too late just come on home.

Hold to your children, let them know.

2009-07-28T22:30:00.003+08:00

a time to cherish..
a day to remember..
a person to treasure..

thankyou =)

2009-07-24T02:46:00.003+08:00

i can still feel the ache when i think back on your words..
in between sobs, you said, "Thank you. I know you really care for me."

although it was just a soft whimper, i can hear you clearly. i had to restrain myself from running forward to hug you. 'cause i need you to be independent. 'cause i need you to learn from your mistakes. 'cause i want you to be a useful person.

'cause i care..

Everyone needs a good hug once in awhile

2009-07-21T00:09:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JIA!

HAPPYHAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

2009-07-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

im back in singapore for 3weeks and i m still in the 'vacation' mode. results will be out really soon and there will be no more excuses to not start looking for a proper job. im a fulltime slacker now.

im back to patterson. searching frantically for his books all over the island (well, wasnt physically there but still managed to get hold of them). so i have a tower of books to complete reading and my room is still in a big mess. noone can tahan tat, except for me of course =)

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went for the NDP preview last sat and it was blasting awesome. its very different from the previous years but its a good surprise. funny yet educational. i didnt fall asleep this time. the fireworks was really pretty. taped it down and i m still re-watching it in the afternoon.

and at the last part of the celebration, they released the giant balls from the back of the seats. i was watching the balls rolling down from either sides and complained to wei tat why there aint any coming our way when he shouted, "there! got one coming behind you!"

i turned and almost got knocked out by the giant red ball. it was funny AND painful. hahahz..

Filling up the space in each other's hearts

2009-07-17T00:58:00.002+08:00

When you call, my heart stops beating.

When you cut, it wun stop bleeding..

2009-07-08T00:42:00.017+08:00

some photos from the aust trip

Preparations and discussions at Dan's place.

The first touch down and many more to go..

Jia

Wei, Hong

Dan, Jia

Nick

Baby caught in the middle

At Pylon lookout.

i couldnt get enuff going thru the photos again and again. =)

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noiя. says:
you know in your photos at aus
you look so different
ying says:
hmm izzit?
fat?
noiя. says:
NOOOO
you look
really really
happy
like i look at the pictures i see you so happy i smile also
that kind of happy

i was reallyreally happy. really.

2009-07-05T16:31:00.002+08:00

it's that time of the year where i will act a little differently but well maybe i m always behaving weirdly.

i like the number se7en and the month July. i like anything that got to do se7en. but the yr 2007 wasnt fantastic. maybe 1997 was better but i cant really recall anyting now.

i dunnoe why i m saying all these. i just feel a little uneasy inside. some feelings that i cant comprehend. some things i would rather forget or maybe i chose to remember..

Perfection isnt everything.

2009-07-04T02:24:00.000+08:00

i saw it. it's time to end it.
thankyou for holding on for so long.

iwillmissyou.

2009-07-03T10:07:00.005+08:00

There's A Place In Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could Be Much Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need To Cry
In This Place, You'll Feel That There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways To Get There
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Little Space Make A Better Place...

CHORUS
Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Better Place For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For Joyful Giving
If We Try, We Shall See
In This Bliss, We Cannot Feel Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And Start Living

Then It Feels That Always Love's Enough For Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

CHORUS

And The Dream We Were Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face And The World We Once Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep Strangling Life,
Wound This Earth,
Crucify Its Soul?
Though It's Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly
Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart, I Feel You Are All My Brothers
Create A World With No Fear
Together We'll Cry Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn Their Swords Into Plowshares
We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

im no fan of Micheal Jackson but it did slap me a little when i heard about his death. we were climbing up the mountains when our guide stopped in his tracks and told us about the news. it is something big. i dunnoe who else i can compare him to to show how much his death will affect almost everyone living in this world.

i believe he had went to the better place he had always sang about. somewhere with no sorrow but only happy tears, somewhere with love and no lies. somewhere i hope i can be too.
lets just remember him for his music and not those controversial rumours.

2009-07-02T01:51:00.002+08:00

happy birthday DES!
all the best for your studies. do our family proud! Be the first to enter a local uni alrite!!

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oh yes... i m back in singapore. australia is really good. i can almost say, it was the best time in my life.. but maybe not. lets just say, it was really AWESOME. i almost had the urge to skip the flight back to singapore. im already missing it when we were waiting to board the plane back.

im back home. back in my own home. my place in singapore.
i dun hae much to complain abt my homesweethome. there's no end to comparisons. it's just that the grass is always greener at the other side. the moon is always fuller in other countries. the sky is always clearer at some other places.
we nv learn to cherish the tings we have. either we'd taken all these for granted or we didnt even know wat we originally have with us, in us.

Take it slow,

you have nothing much to lose, anyway.

2009-06-18T13:52:00.002+08:00

yesyesyeyseysyeyssyesyes =)
im feeling a little unassured.
i tink.. i will feel better when i m there myself.

SEEYOU guys in JULY!!!!

2009-06-14T12:44:00.003+08:00

it feels so surreal.
the reason tat kept me busy for the past 3 to 4 weeks is going to happen soon. i still wouldnt imagine myself being there. when was the last long holiday i had? hmm.. probably during my sec sch days and it wasnt really a leisure trip, it was more 'school exchange' kind of trip. we performed 3 days, played 4 days.

and i didnt really have many of those short trips to nearby countries, unfortunately. so, i m really excited and worried at the same time. being away from home (althou tat was sth i always wish for), going to somewhere new, strange and hopefully fun. im really looking forward to my first backpacker trip. my first hoilday trip after reaching adulthood. my first long holiday tat is planned all on our own, everything from head to toe, shoulder to shoulder, chest to chest. theres many other first time-s and im all wound up and ready to GO GO GO.

forget abt the frustration in between the planning, tats the con when travelling in big grps, but like they always say the more brains, the better.

IT WILL BE GOOD. very awesome ~

2009-06-11T18:23:00.004+08:00

i was going through the reviews for the hostels in Darwin when i saw..

Customer Reviews

1. Flavio, from Italy ~ Jun 6 2009 : 44%
STAFF VERY UNKIND AND RUDE, NEVER SMILE.THE BACKPACKER SEEMS A HOSPITAL AND WOMEN AND MAN BATHROOMS ARE IN COMMON. THE COMPUTER WASN'T WORKING AND WHEN I TRIED TO PLUG MY LAPTOP THEY TOLD ME THAT'S NOT ALLOWED AND I SHOULD PAY 50$ FINE. I SPENT ALMOST 2 WEEKS AND THE LAST DAY THEY KIKED ME OUT AND THEY SAD I CAN'T HAVE A SHOWER.IF I DO IS 50 $ FINE!!!!I KNOW CHECK OUT IS AT 10AM( AS I DID), BUT SEVERAL HOSTELS LET YOU STAY THERE IF YOU'RE WAITING A BUS. I'LL NEVER COME BACK!!

2. Thiam Tjhiang, from Indonesia ~ Jan 3 2009 : 64%
staff very helpful

so.. are the staff there helpful or not??

3. Kristian, from Denmark ~ Mar 1 2009 : 24%
Worst hostel we've stayed in. It seemed almost like a rehabilitation center for old alcoholics and junkies. There were a lot of creepy people living there permenently. Constantly fightings and raveings each night. Horrible place. Choose one of the other hostels in town.

and the owner even replied...

Just letting you know that we have evicted a few people who you have reported of. We have also installed security cameras for everyones safety. We are trying our best to police our guests. I hope you do consider staying with us sometime in the future.

but watever it is, this hostel wouldnt be in my list.. ahhaaha

2009-06-01T02:58:00.001+08:00

BOOTS SHOPPING~

2009-05-30T03:40:00.005+08:00

i dun feel appreciated. i put in alot of effort too. maybe not as much but i did wat i can. i just didnt inform the rest becoz i thought we are going to compile wat we hae and show it together, which was why i always discuss with you when i hae new findings before realizing tat you had changed the plans again. you said you wasted many hours searching, didnt i too? i searched without knowing the 'exact' plan. i wasnt aimless, i was clueless.

haii.. watever you say rules. ive to follow the majority.
and tat feeling sucks.

2009-05-25T02:04:00.005+08:00

we roughly got the plans for the whole 14day trip. there'll be grampians day(WOOH), phillip island day(YEAH), zoo day (another YEAH), blue mountain day(SWEET), shopping days(YEAHYEAH), great ocean road day and our final day will be spent at the desert while waiting for the transit flight back to singapore.

we are stil looking for places to go to spend our 10 to 13 hours at darwin. hmm.. or we might just wander ard the area with our backpacks on. =(

it will be a little rushrush but we just hae to make do with it. prioritize the MUST-GO and to give up some SHOULD-GO places. but if there's time in between we will surely drive up to geelong before going down the great ocean road.

wat i m left to do is to work out the drive to grampians with jia + choosing the activities for philip island and type out the itinerary for the 14days and SEND. i like tis kind of busy. FUN-busy

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i always tink i m a genius with games, be it video games, mobile games, computer games etc. i can pick them up very easily.. okie, i know many ppl can do at too. i always resist to play any games from the facebook becoz i tink they are lame and.. yea a little meaningless. BUT ,a big but, i started playing bejeweled blitz after i saw it on des's profile. and becoz there's no limit to the number of times of play per day.. i spent the whole nite clicking away.. trying to break my own record for nearly 6 hours. im ranked way below my freinds and i m just not satisfied tat i cant top the table. so i tried it again the nx day and i m only able to improve my score by another few hundred points which is actually not very useful.. des says it depends on luck, not skills.

and somehow something struck me. "addiction"
i m addicted to it. it's similar to the addiction for gambling, smoking and drugs. you just cant get enuff of it. and wat's worse is tat i dun get anyting out of the game. no, i dun feel relax after playing. no, i dun get the high. and i definitely wont win any money from it. hahaz.. so i was right at the start to abstain from playing and i m goin to stop myself before i get hooked to it.

All tat was full

will be emptied

2009-05-23T03:47:00.003+08:00

im settling in.. slowly getting back to how i used to be before jan came.

and i tink i can really get used to it. im getting more and more excited every minute. i was lacking the enthusiasm when i walked out of the hall feeling so bad abt the paper. after awhile, i kept repeating to myself and the ppl ard me tat 我考完了! 我真的考完了!! maybe i was too tired after carrying the heavy rock for so long tat i wasnt really eager to finish my uni life just yet. my 'excitement' wasnt really heartfelt. but it got better at night and i m liking it man!!

more good days to come~~~

2009-05-22T00:01:00.003+08:00

i almost burst into tears when i heard his name being called. it wasnt a joke, it was for real.

i was clenching my fists praying hard tat it would be himhimhim. oh my baby, i m so happy for you. and all the best for your future becoz it will be long, it will be difficult but i know you will make it BIG. i m so happy tat i had totally forgotten abt how special today is.

ahhaz.. i know i should be more excited for another reason. i'm done with school. done as in finish finished. whether it was a good finish or a bad ending, it was all done and over. there's nth i could do now, watever i can is all done during tat 3hours sitting in the chilly cold freezer shivering throughtout the whole paper and writing with my frosty numb hand. aaahhh no more sufferings. im done XL!!! and yours' coming very soon~ i've recovered and am starting to enjoy life again, hope you can end your sufferings soon and join me >.-

and for the last couple of weeks.. i wasnt just busy studying. i was catching every episode of survivor, the ghost whisperer, project runway and tim gunn's style of life. and yes!! JT got the survivor trophy which was wat i had expected after tyson and coach was being sent home. i really adore coach and i'd believed his stories abt the walk down amazon river and was captured by the natives blahblahblah.. they were all true man. kudos to you! you hae my respect. i watched the final episode of survivor on mon afternoon, live telecast. the show was 3 hours long and there goes my afternoon. i watched it again at nite. another 3hours wasted. and i m going to catch it again tmr nite. i just love watching the whole summary of JT's journey and hear the fantastic tales from the storyteller. the most colourful participant in all survivor seasons. (which was why i couldnt finish revising CF)

hmm.. a sign of relief. everyting will hae a good ending, at least it was all good in my point of view. im just glad everyting ended tis way and i hope when the results out nx yr i would be as satisfied as i m now.

I cant control how im perceived

but

i can control how i m presented.

2009-05-09T00:29:00.002+08:00

IT's coming
and it's HAPPENING SOON!!!!

i used to hae someone impt standing behind me, pushing me, supporting me thru all the major papers. PSLE Olevels Alevels but tis time it's a little different.. it's a little different every year...

im depending on my own.

Remember for the way we were.

2009-05-04T00:08:00.004+08:00

i can feel the anxiety as the deadline is just a week away.. wanna squeeze everything in hoping i can reproduce them one by one. i have high hopes, high expectations but i dun hae the confidence... you know how you can wish for sth to happen knowing you are not working hard enuff. xw told me to wish to a star and not reveal my wish to anyone or it wouldnt come true. i thnk i hae to keep it to myself 'coz everyone who is taking the exams will be hoping for the same things..

anyway, ive been studying, trying hard to study, everyday. minus off the 'settling down', 'slack time', 'dozing-off' and some other whatnot, the effective hours is disgustingly short. i need to get SERIOUS and FOCUS!

GETTING DOWN TO WORK. ciao~

Heal the WORLD

2009-04-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

it's the last day of April!

you wouldnt know how time flies until you really want it to slow down..
im going thru the typical days of a studious candidate fighting against her life's greatest enemy - examinations!

when it comes to a point where you had forgotten the day, the date and why you were working so hard.. it's time to take a short break. a short one but no less a break. err.. i actually came online for another purpose. i didnt intend to take any break now becoz i cant afford to.

since i m here.. let me say sth abt yeste's match. Good work Almunia!!!!!! WE will put all of the pressure on Manu. =)

and another ting, swine flu is spreading like wild fire in other countries and i really hope, reallyreallyreally hope, tat it will not hit singapore. if ive to cancel my holiday, i will. if ive to stay home for a month, i will. i understand tat it's the Mother Nature's way to control/reduce the Earth's population but i dun wanna be the one to sacrifice. so god bless everyone and stay healthy!!!!

Dun waste your whole life trying to get back wat was taken away.

2009-04-19T23:08:00.003+08:00

dun despair!

why? becoz there's always a solution out there.

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im in the boring-busy phase. boringly busy. busily boring. ahh watever.

i dun wanna countdown to the exams but it's inevitable. xw's first paper for her mid year falls on the same day as mine. holy shit. to make tings worse, my finals end in just 9days. NINE bloody days for 4 papers. when i used to hae more than a month to complete the exams.

no use panicking. no use worrying. practice revise and more practice is the only way.
PROFPROF beasley said tat it's better to hae a boring examination than an interesting one. if only i can foresee wat will be coming out for each module. if only i can...

studying for my final exam is my priority now, everyting else can wait.

can't wait for the FUN-busy stage to come....

Change is the only constant

2009-04-12T00:40:00.005+08:00

SO!!

it's the exam period.
got back 2 of the prelims paper and it was pretty disappointing. i've nv NV scored such low marks for any maths units before. i barely passed.

disappointment.regrets. time to step on the accelerator and speed up. im racing with time and fate but i've faith tat i will outrun them. i always say hard work will pay off. it will, eventually.

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out with my beloved for a bigbreak. i enjoy those stress-free moments bumming ard, having no agenda, nowhere to rush to. those worry-free life.
it was fun. it was really fun.

and you know why ppl always say, ' Good times flies.' ?

becoz they really did....

Happiness is a feeling; not a state of wealth or poverty

but it's linked to your inner self.

2009-03-30T00:11:00.007+08:00

it was a very special night. we went down to chijmes to watch the match of the month - ManU vs Liv.

she was pretty confident tat it will be the devil's game. one ting tat i didnt tell her was - im the curse. hahahz..

so one goal to ManU, a draw from Liv and another by Torres.. Gerrard.. the goals never come alone. when it was 3-1 to Liv, the crowd was jumping with joy. every goal scored was accompanied with applaudes and hi-fives.

and there's the change in expressions:

i dont care if arsenal has the chance to top the table, becoz it wun. but i would rather want liverpool to take the trophy. =)

OH! and arsenal trashed blackburn tat night too. FINALLY

2009-03-28T18:51:00.003+08:00

it's almost the end of Mar. 2 more months and i m done with school. having tat conflicting feelings for it to come faster but not so soon. i wan the break but i m not prepared for the end.

finally get to see Barry. tat was after so many months of arrangement when he finally showed up. time to start chiong-ing!! once the revision workshop starts, time will zip past fast. REAL FAST.

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met jia and frenz last night and got down to some serious discussions. it's difficult to come out with a concrete plan thru msn or emails. i prefer the traditional form of communication - to meet face to face. almost nothing from our original plan satisfies everyone, so we started from ground zero, restating the places we wanna visit, things we wanna do and we somehow get to a conclusion to fly to Sydney straight. without planning the itinerary, we went ahead to book the flights. it's so unlike me. hahahz.. but like how liwei says, "we book first. die die also must go."

i saw the ticket receipts online, my bank balances a thousand poorer and the email confirmation. so eveyting abt the flights is confirmed and i feel so much more assured tat im really flying off in jun.

and one impt ting to note, i can only really enjoy myself IF i know i did well for the finals.
ALL THE WAY ~~~

Can you read my mind?

2009-03-24T23:09:00.002+08:00

last week was horrible. it wasn't just busy. it was bloody hell kind of hectic. i've to rush ard the eastern and central part of our tiny island many times a day. i thought i could hae a good break after prelims but the plannings for the bigbreak in jun and the networking session was atrocious. and it didnt worth so much of my time after going for it.

i wouldnt say it was a waste of my time money and effort. i get to meet new ppl, tok to them and know more insights on the "REAL" working world. it was a good opportunity to network but.. okie, maybe i expected too much from it.

ANYWAY, i started my revisions today. an official start for the race until may. have to chiong even harder after knowing all the silly mistakes i made during the prelims.

JIAYOU ba ppl.

I wanna be forever young

2009-03-19T15:57:00.001+08:00

Approach networking with an end in mind. Have a goal that you want to achieve at the end of the session. Spend time in places where you are more likely to meet people of the profession you work in or want to work in. Decide how you want to introduce yourself and how you want to come across and think about interesting things about yourself you can discuss. To boost your confidence, always think of six attractive qualities you have before you approach a networking session. Having a structured plan increases your chances of success. Hence to conclude, though networking is often intimidating, its benefits far outweigh its costs and you should seek to develop networking skills now!

2009-03-15T19:09:00.002+08:00

i've gotten a real good bargain tis time round at the IT fair. so damn excited. hahhaz..

i bought myself a camera!! my first and definitely not the last one. =)
and it was all on sudden impulse and there's not a tinge of regret. so marketing theory was wrong to say temptation purchases will normally lead to cognitive dissonance becoz i dun feel any of it.

i will get to know her better soon enuff, i hope.

anyway, i wun buy sth without giving it a proper intention. so, it's meant to be a motivation for my coming exams. i can see it and feel it to know i hae to work hard to make it come true. and tat IT is a short break at the outback!! yes, the camera isnt the real reward. hahahaz.. reasons can always be made up and i tink tis is a pretty good one. =)

When things change,

you need time for it to sink in.

2009-03-13T02:10:00.004+08:00

A fren is someone who sticks with your team... rain or shine.
A fren is someone who remembers to bring the can of balls.
A fren is someone who'll give you a free ride.
A fren is someone who tells you not to worrie if you double-fault and lose the winning point.
A fren is someone who appreciates your kind of music.
A fren is someone you can telephone after midnite.

A fren is someone who'll go jogging with you at six in the morning.
A fren is someone who'll let you sulk if you feel like it.
A fren is someone who'll try to find you when you're lost.
A fren is someone who respects you even if you're not as big as him.
A fren is someone who can kiss on the nose.
A fren is someone who doesnt move in on your territory.
A fren is someone who doesnt lauff at you.
A fren is someone who knows when to keep quiet.
A fren is someone who doesnt tell you anyting "for your own good."

A fren is someone you can trust.
A fren is someone who gets a lower grade than yours and keeps you from being the dumbest in the class.
A fren is someone who doesnt play rough.
A fren is someone who comes to your rescue when you're in a fix.
A fren is someone who gives you the hardback edition instead of waiting for the paperback to come out.
A fren is someone who doesnt make fun of you even when you do dumb tings.
A fren is someone who picks you up when you're down.
A fren is someone who isnt put off by your crabby face.
A fren is someone as sweet and pretty as your sister.
A fren is someone who helps you to forget your self-doubts.

A fren is someone who offers to bring desserts when you invite him to dinner.
A fren is someone who puts you up for membership in his club.
A fren is someone who someone who says "my treat."
A fren is someone who doesnt intrude on your solitude.

A fren is someone you can count on.

2009-03-12T02:02:00.002+08:00

i wanna reward myself!!!
after the exams of coz..

i promise to work reallyreally hard for tis final year so tat i can play veryveryvery hard after tat. im halfway past my target budget and i hope i can save even more. there's so many places i wanna go.. like jia always say "i wanna explore the damn world!" hahahz..

10k by 25. we are aiming for Europe 2weeks, maybe a month!!!, round trip!
and to America then back to south east asia, and my IDEAL country - Argentina. =)

there are soooOooO many places tat i hae nv heard of and nv knew. suddenly, i feel so small. but all these travelling costs money and time. i will tink of a way, by then... hahahz..

okie, enuff of day-dreaming (i know it's a little too early)
BACK TO NOTES ciao~

2009-03-11T23:45:00.003+08:00

Girls are sensitive creatures.
So fragile tat sometimes you dunno when to say to them the tings you want to say, fearing to break their 'glass' hearts.

actually, you're creating more hurt when you are more protective towards them.

Love doesnt need to hurt.
Love never hurts.

2009-03-04T01:22:00.006+08:00

xw saw my wallet and asked, "Miss Koh, why do you keep so many receipts in your wallet?"

"Why do adults like to keep old things tat they dun need?"

sometimes, it's not becoz we cant bother to pack but rather, we dun wan to lose the memories. maybe it's time to stop living in the past...

Is tis wat we call sentimental? or just refusing to let it go...

2009-02-25T21:29:00.005+08:00

im done with my 履历表 (lv3 li4 biao3). hahahz.. i'd a hard time looking for the chinese translation for résumé. im all ready to send it in~

chatted with stevenchong over the weekend and he made me realized wat i have been missing when im 'planning' for job hunting. nonetheless to say, his words kept me up the whole night.
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started preparing for mock and it's a little slow, a little too slow. nx week's the 1st paper and im nowhere near the halfway mark. always find myself stuck on some forgotten theories learned during the 1st year. it's so frustrating.

and im praying hard tat i can somehow manage CF. i dunnoe why i took the module tat im totally clueless about.

i'll conquer all of you!!! i will, no matter wat.

If you wanna do it your way,

do it well.

2009-02-21T18:48:00.003+08:00

Potential Breakup Song.

1. What would you say if someone were to say, "Is this o.k.?"
Chasing Pavement - Adele
( it's nv o.k., continue the race..)

2. What do you like in a guy / girl?
Good Girl Gone Bad - Rihanna
( i like BAD boys)

3. How do you feel today?
Good Life - Kanye West
(life is good EVERYDAY!)

4. What is your life's purpose?
All Around Me - Flyleaf
(to live for the ppl who are ALL AROUND ME)

5. What is your motto?
Jenny - Click5
(the JENNY i know is blur. i dun wan to be blur... )

6. What do your friends think of you?
Song 6 - Daniel Powter
(im like a song... hahahahaha)

7. What do you think of your parents?
Genie in A Bottle - Christina Aguilera
(they provide accommodation, food and gives hongbao money! )

8. What do you often think about?
Breathless - The Corrs
(XXX always leaves me breathless..)

9. What is 2 + 2?
About You Now - Sugababes
(who cares abt 2+2. it's ALL about you.)

10. What do you think of your best friend?
Toxic - Britney Spears
(i did mention tat before, i have toxic frenz)

11. What do you think of the person you like?
Stop & Stare - One Republic
(i can only stop and stare at him...)

12. What is your life story?
Gotta be somebody - Nickelback
(im gonna be somebody one day. one FINE day..)

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing - Aerosmith
(no ambition, wat i know is i dun wanna miss out on my life)

14. What comes to mind when you see the person you like?
Don't Give Up On Me - Daniel Powter
(give me some more time.. )

15. What do your parents think of you?
Just Lose It - Eminen
(an uncontrollable daughter)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Come Back To Me - David Cook
(WRONG. totally WRONG)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
1973 - James Blunt
(i like tis song, so i wun mind. reminisce our weekly rendezvous)

18. What is your hobby / interest?
Eternal Flame - Atomic Kitten
(creating sparks. as in squabbling with my toxic fren)

19. What do you think of your friends?
So What - Pink
(what friend??)

20. What is the worst that could happen?
When Love & Hate Collide - Def Leppard
(im helpless in tis...)

21. How will you die?
그녀가 헤어졌다 (One For Me) - ShinEE
( i THINK i will die once. just one for me)

22. What is the one thing you regret most?
Never Let You Go - Janice Wei
(i should have let you go.. earlier.)

23. What makes you laugh?
No One - Alicia Keys
(actually, anyone can make me lauff but not many can make me smile..)

24. What makes you cry?
Love Hurts - Incubus
(easy answer: LOVE)

25. Will you ever get married?
Crush - David Archuleta
(YESYESYES. my wedding will not crush.)

26. What scares you the most?
Mary Jane - Click5
(HIGH mary jane heels.)

27. Does anyone like you?
I'm Not Your Superwoman - Karyn White
(er.. i guess not.)

28. If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Thank You For Loving Me - Bon Jovi
(oh ya, i forgot to thank all those who loved/ still loving me)

29. What hurts right now?
Cradle - Atomic Kitten
(?? you'll need a hug when you're hurt..)

30. What will you post this as?
Potential Breakup Song - Aly & AJ

okie, done having 'FUN'.
back to my notes...... CIAO~~

2009-02-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

im busy getting alive.

im jam-packed having a life.

hai, i'm never contented.

2009-02-13T00:05:00.006+08:00

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
i don't want my live to go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are somethin special
to you i'd be always faithful
i want to be what you always needed
that i hope you'll see the heart in me

You might need time to think it over
but im just fine moving forward
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

You're the one i wanna chase
you're the one i wanna hold
i won't let another minute go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul

I want you and your beautiful soul

2009-02-08T03:39:00.002+08:00

Wat kind of person am i to you?

2009-02-08T01:17:00.005+08:00

Sitting by the window, singing songs of love

Wishing you were here

Because the memory's not enough

Wear my mask in silence, pretending i'm alrite

If you could see then you would be here standing by my side.

Of all we've said and done

Remains the memories of days when life was fun

But now when you are gone, i sit alone to watch the setting of the sun

Feels like i'm walking in the rain

i find myself trying to wash away the pain

coz i need you to gif me some shelter

coz i'm fading away

and baby, i'm walking in the rain...

2009-01-27T22:42:00.007+08:00

last last night
just last last night, i had one of those horrible dreams again. it was like a war field. between me and you. i was thrashing all tat i have been keeping inside of me out. throwing them out of my body, removing the poison that i have been accumulating within.

everyting felt so real. i was holding back my tears putting on the brave front just to save myself some face, some pride. i'm not an egoistic person but i have enuff being humiliated by you. i tried to let go but you carried on with your dirty tactics and i hae no other way but to retaliate.

i was fighting so hard in my dreams. and when i had finished my piece, i woke up, i broke down. i dun hate you becoz hating someone requires energy and i dun wan to hae a place for you in my heart. it doesnt mean i had forgiven you, all i want is you out of my life. you'd ruined a third of my life so far.

i didnt hae the choice to choose. i was borned into it. i m just unlucky to hae tis dehumanizing fucker in my life.

tat fucker who woke me up at 6.34am on the first day of lunar new year. i woke up preparing my infamous fabricated smile putting away the battle knowing we will meet again soon and your deeds will kill you one day.

i hate to hae tis internal struggle. it's mentally exhausting and a total waste of my time.

i felt so stupid after everyting ended.
will it ever go away?

2009-01-24T01:12:00.005+08:00

Some meaningful quotes from Abraham Lincoln, the late president of US:

You cannot escape the responsibility of tomorrow by evading it today.

Whatever you are, be a good one.

The best way to destroy an enemy is to make him a friend.

The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time.

People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.

Marriage is neither heaven nor hell, it is simply purgatory.

It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to open one's mouth and remove all doubt.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

If you look for the bad in people expecting to find it, you surely will.

Character is like a tree and reputation like a shadow. The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing.

Be sure you put your feet in the right place, then stand firm.

A friend is one who has the same enemies as you have.

and the one Seet shared with us was

You can fool all the people some of the time,
You can fool some of the people all the time,
You can fool some of the people some of the time,
but you cannot fool all the people all the time.

2009-01-18T23:11:00.002+08:00

Back to school
Back to tutoring
Back with Alex Cross
Back to gym

wat a way to start 2009!!

i tink many had set some new year resolutions for 2009 and summed up wat they achieved/accomplished/still striving for in 2008. well.. i didnt set anyting for myself last yr.. hmm maybe one. to pass and get on to my final yr in SIM. and for tis yr.. i'm almost resigned to fate. come wat may.

after a short break for xmas and new yr, everyting is now back on track. i hae lesser time to think abt the unthinkable and more time on constructive events in life - my degree.

feeling the need to get serious and start preparing for the FINAL exam. promised myself to start the engine after CNY. Mock exams is predicted to start in mid feb which is just a month away. how to revise like tat!?!?

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mummy touched on sth tat was so sudden last nite.
she talked to me abt marriage. not hers. mine.

one of our neighbours, 23, got married last aug. the couple have been together for more than 7 yrs. mummy told me tat i used to bad-mouthed abt her having a boyfriend at such a young age and tat i always see them together under the void deck or us taking the same lift back. her in her school uniform. ( i dun remember tat i did becoz i was dating ard the same time as she is but watever. )

he is in his thirties now so his family is pushing him to get married as soon as possible. i understand and i believe it's not easy for 2 individuals to be in touch or in a relationship for 7yrs. how many friends did you manage to hold on to tat is over a decade?

then mummy started to tell me tat only boys who are sincere and responsible will bring you home to meet his parents. and me to bring him home if i tink he's serious about me. i started to 'err-s and ermm-s' and told her tat isnt so true now. and especially so when i hae a protective father.

i remember times when my father chased the boys i was with on different occasions. most werent my bfs. if he was lucky to catch one, he will reprimand him right on the spot. some managed to escape unhurt and they will call back to tell me they are okay. but i wasnt going to be. father will question me abt 'the friend' i was with and i will insist tat i was walking back alone. no one was with me. i know he doesnt take my story but in the end he will let it go with a warning. even one of my uncles caught me on the streets. he called me the nx day asking if it was me tat he saw. i was lucky tat he didnt honk at me on the spot. it's so insecure to hae so many relatives as taxi-drivers.

so.. tat was why i have nv been truthful to my parents regarding relationship issues. not even now. i dun like to be hiding all these from them but.. i dont hae a choice.
BUT!
i'm 21 now.. maybe just maybe i should own up if i see the chance to.

------

i was explaining to xw the meaning of spinster when she stopped me and declared proudly, "my sisters and i already promise to be spinsters! we dont wan to get married. we want to stay together with mummy daddy and my grandparents."
then she added on, " miss koh, you also wan to spinster? like us?"

i could only give a weak smile and continue teaching.

A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle.

2009-01-04T15:13:00.003+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No, you don't know what it's like

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you

No, you don't know what it's like

WELCOME TO MY LIFE!

Leave the past in the past and look forward to find wat future has in store for you.. when you sit there contemplating wat to do, procrastinating wat you will do, another day flew past, another day wasted. when you're busy coming up with excuses, another day is gone.

Life is wat's happening. You create the life you want.

2008-12-30T00:44:00.015+08:00

1. Likor with his shampoo/perfume pack

2. Willy and his perfume

3. Bee and his coin punch

4. Derxin and cap

5. Tys and wrist rest

6. Marcus and massager

7. Nono and sexy thongs

8. Allen and stretcher

9. CZ with his whip

10. Ying with Just Do It bag

11. Gugu with his hse

and from all of us:

HAPPY

2009!!

2008-12-29T16:08:00.017+08:00

as promised, some of the photos from my 21st's. i dun own a camera so everyting tat i have is donated from all the kind souls tat went. =)

frenz relatives and more frenz relatives came. i was running ard the whole time not knowing why i was so busy.

the cake wasnt a surprise to most. i love/adore/whatever tat can describe the deep/strong feeling i have for chocos. and the cake wasnt a chocolate cake! it was a pretty lychee martini sponge cake coated with orange icing. i tink i told/discussed with whoever i can before ordering tat. it's sweet and tantalizing but not too jelat. stil able to satisfy my sweet tooth very much thankyou.

some came when most left. everyone had so much things on tat nite but they made an effort to come down nevertheless. touched and grateful for their presence. i know they do care =)

and so the 3D2N stay at aloha changi ended on a happy note. an extremely happy one.

2008-12-22T00:54:00.001+08:00

MERRY
CHRISTMAS
in advance people.
seeyou before 2009 comes =)

2008-12-22T00:31:00.005+08:00

X'Mas Sale!!

Go to Just Graphic and check out the Tees.

Selling @ $20 a piece.

Contact person: ME

2008-12-21T02:01:00.003+08:00

jingying says:
i think this week is the longest week i never see u haha
.
we will meet or attend the same lectures at least 2 to 3 times a week. that is the minimum. but i haven seen her for a week now and i'm not goin to see her until tuesday. =(

da told me before tat i might as well marry jing and live happily ever after. since i'm not interested in guys and she's the one i'm always with. i find it amusing but everyone tat i share with told me it sounds so sad. as thou i m not capable to find someone who means something to me. hmm.. someone.

2008-12-20T22:18:00.004+08:00

okie, i wrote about the 'spring cleaning' in my room and now i got 2 TVs fighting for the 'space'. kept the bigger one in my room, shifted the shelves and it is sitting comfortably at one corner, unplugged. i will hae the cables and wires fixed one day.

987fm doesnt hae online radio after 10pm, again. hope it's just a temporary adjustment. fortunately, OKTO switches to 987radio after 12am everyday. at least, i hae a way out..
another thing abt the new channel, there's a OKTO retro night on.. i cant remember when, it's either sun or mon or maybe tues.. OKIE nvm, they are showing some 'old school' comedies like Mind Your Language and Alio Alio. i was watching MYL when my father came home and saw it. the first comment he made was, " this one very long ago already. last time i got watch. very funny."

ya.. i know it's funny, papa.

he told me it was first aired ard 20plus yrs back. and i guess he's in his thirties if i'm not wrong. and he can still remember the names of some of the actors. "Mr Brown teaches the students from other countries but the Principal doesnt like him. the Principal wants to change the teacher but the students only like Mr Brown."
and at certain point of the show, "there, tis French student always likes to create trouble." or things like this.. "the Japanese student really is a Japanese.."

you're the funny one, papa.

there's another incident about him. okie, let's start with..
he bought a new fridge, washing machine, air pot, standing fan and built in hob. dun ask mi why, but he is really nice recently. so having these new appliances in the kitchen, there will bound to be some 'problems'. there wasnt any complications with the installations and setting ups but..

i woke up late the nx morning. was walking to the kitchen when i passed by some box tat was lying nx to the entrance of the kitchen. it was a new wall cabinet. tinking nth abt it since my mother always nags at him to get some shelves fixed on the walls for more storage space.
as i was brushing my teeth, i realized something was missing..

the mirror!

he came up with his own little story abt the incident tat morning.
" oh, tat mirror. ha ha. he was jealous tat everyone got replaced and he's stil here. so he not happy. when i open the door, it fell off. he's telling me to change him also. so i buy one new one. you never see the white box outside?"

and he rattled off abt how good it is. how the door can be opened two-way and it's bigger and better.

you're the funny one, papa.

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so xmas and 2009 is nearing. how can anyone not feel excited? even if there's nth to be excited about. hahahz..

xmas celebration = delic food + good companions.
private parties with no surcharges becoz it's lady's nitez. i'm the one and only.
turkey, ham, free flow of drinks, log cake, finger food etc.
great line up of games dance and everyting nice. there's even a grand prize for the top.. dancer? gamer? ohh watever.. tat's nth to do with me. hahahz.. i'm there to enjoy and hae fun!

so have fun everybody! dun drink and drive. but if you do, pls dun drive anywhere near me.

When you have the chance, grab it.

dun let it slip out of your hand,

again.

2008-12-16T14:08:00.003+08:00

here's some short updates before i go for my dim sum buffet.

my hair has 'turned' brown. nth to argue abt the colour now, it was nth close to the colour i want when i just have it dyed anyway.
it's supposed to be purple. =( ohh.. never mind.

shifted the tings in my room. have them wiped, cleaned and they all look new to me now. hahhaz.. so it's a NEW look with the old stuff. and i like it =) got to buy some stuff to fill up the 'space'...

went out wid nise and des for shopping yeste. it was fun and nonsensical as usual. photos will be up when i get them. hahahz.. and you will get to see my wedding portrait!!

okie, 15mins is up. i need to FLY~~

2008-12-15T02:05:00.002+08:00

Take some time to reflect.
to tink about the tings you did. you said.
imagine how you would feel if someone else said to you wat you said, did to you wat you just did.

maybe you wouldnt mind, maybe you wouldnt care, maybe it's just you to be like you and it's our fault tat we 'should hae known it better'.

i m lazy to tink. lazy to type. lazy to bother..

There's always room for MORE improvements.

2008-12-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

a very 'interesting' poem i stumbled upon...

He Broke My Heart I Broke His............

There once was a guy who I thought quite clever

His pursuit of me was his biggest endeavor

With much persistence he won my heart

Little did I know he'd break it apart

He led me to believe that he was winner

He bought me flowers and took me to dinner

He decided one woman was not quite enough

My heart was broken for the first time and it was rough

After he played he came back to me

He promised he no longer wanted to be free

And being the naïve fool that I was

I took him back, I don't know why "just because"

And wouldn't you know it he hurt me again

I found myself crying as I asked where he'd been

He said please forgive me I want only you

With my foot I took aim and made him turn blue

He said, "I guess this means your answer is no"

I said, "Baby I've grown up, and I've got to go"